august, 2024

karma

I didn’t believe in karma. I used to. Like a familiar saying I once heard, "Karma often comes very late, so many people think it doesn't exist" I thought so, it didn't exist. But what I've witnessed in just a short span of time has changed my mind.

A photo captured a wall with some of Japanese texts.
Shot on iPhone 2024-08-30T19:02:42+07:00
a place we call our own.

Karma may exist, and it happens when it's pushed to its limit.

It doesn't come late, it's just that the limit hasn't been reached for it to appear.

And its limit is decided by balance. If the balance deviates more and more, it becomes more likely to occur.

It's like you're playing on a seesaw with a ball. The balance point will be raised to a height proportional to the common things everything on the seesaw had. If it gets unbalanced enough, either you will fall off your seat, or the ball opposite will fall back onto you.

Every gesture, every action, in every moment, at every stage, will be the deciding factor. Like the butterfly effect, only it happens with a bit more logic.

The special thing is that when it happens, awareness of it is completely non-existent. Only when the whole process gradually comes to an end, making the sufferer exhausted, and they become aware enough to realize it. In many cases, they might be able to fix it, but mostly, they cannot.

I don't know if karma is a pre-existing natural rule, or if it's created by someone, or if it was accidentally created. Perhaps, it's a rule in a game we are all playing together, the answer to which will be revealed when we die, or maybe never explained at all.

If this life is truly a simulated game, then karma is certainly one of its rules. It's designed so that no matter how things unfold in this game, they remain fair. But it's also complicated, slow, and sometimes faulty. That's why we can't discern whether it exists or if it's just imagination in our thinking, or just a way our brain protects us when we face injustice. Karma is a true encouragement when it hasn't arrived yet, and a terrifying punishment when it does. Its ultimate purpose is just to keep this world fair, but most of the players won't realize that.

The best way to keep a prisoner from escaping is to make sure he never knows he's in prison, a person said [1]If this life is a simulation, to keep players from escaping, create rules with enough complexity - slow enough - faulty enough so they can't tell if it's real or not. And they'll also doubt whether this world truly exists.

Karma is one of those rules.

If you believe it exists, it won't happen.
If you believe it doesn't exist, it will coincidentally occur.

You'll never truly know the outcome.
Because balance is never as simple as 1+1=2,
It will always be like a puddle = a cloud = a cool stone in a glass.

Karma is sometimes the balance between good and bad, less and more. Of course, whatever the factor, it has quite a broad spectrum. It's not decided by consciousness or thought processes or perspectives, whether there's a connection between these elements and thought remains an enigma.

Nonetheless, thinking can somewhat help the disadvantaged individual stabilize their psyche or have enough reason to forget and move on with a more rectified conscience - which is also better. Whether this is a measure to test if karma exists and is happening in this case is also ambiguous. Who knows?

Conscience might also be the only clock capable of indirectly probing karma. To some people, or to the most of people, it's something seemingly precious that can't be traded, but sometimes it exists without being emphasized, or it does not exist at all.

That too is an ambiguity.

Nothing is clear.

It's like finding your way in the dark,

Light your own torch and go.

2500 years ago, a person [2] already conveyed this.

That's truly something worth remembering.

Sometimes karma works well, occurring within a short period. I've experienced this many times. Sometimes you don't notice it, but upon looking back, it has happened like that. Sometimes you notice it happening, fear forms, and people pass around concepts like Murphy's Law or the Pygmalion effect. Those might also be among the few tools that can measure the process of karma, though it feels imprecise.

It's so vague,
And yet so clear.
To the point where it's hard to believe, but not believing isn't an option either.
It's a rule worthy of respect.

These things are fundamentally ambiguous and always exist in various forms that are hard to explain in the current era. But they also share similarities with the foundational theories of quantum physics.

It's fascinating, how everything is ambiguously interconnected like that.